3 October 2014

A New Month, A New Me

October has come and I decided it's high time I started making posts again. I will start taking this blog more seriously again and do what I enjoy.

My life has changed so much in the last month, it's incredibly surreal. I started university, which I was really nervous about, but it turned out better than I expected. I already met a lot of cool people, which I'm grateful for. My relationship ended and at first I thought it would take me forever to get back on my feet, but after thinking about it I realised the way it turned out was actually for the better and I'm mentally at a much better place now. It's always sad when the person you thought you would spend the rest of your life with becomes a stranger, but when that person hurts you, you lose your trust in them and eventually your respect for them. I'm probably revealing more about my personal life than I should, but I want to be able to help people in a similar position if they're reading this. The first sign that something isn't right, the first time you feel hurt or betrayed is the time to go. Take it from me, it only gets worse after that.

On the bright side, I got a puppy a week ago and I couldn't be happier. Her name is Aria and she is a month-old Jack Russell terrier. The first day we took her home she was so scared and couldn't stop crying, but she's got used to us now and is so playful and cute.


I am happy to be moving forward with my life and finally letting go of the dead weight - it being a person, fears and pain.

23 September 2014

People Who Have Inspired Me

This post was suggested to me by one of my best friends and I thought it was a great idea. I'm going to be talking about celebrities, who have made a change in my life and have had some kind of influence on the way I think, dress or act today.


Beyonce is definitely at the top of my list. Not only is her music incredible, but she has also set an amazing example for women all around the world through her success. She has proven that girls can be just as successful as boys, or even more and that they run the world (Get it? Haha I suck). She has introduced me to feminism and taught me how to stand up for myself and speak up. Beyonce has been my role model for years and thanks to her I have learned a lot and grown.


Kim Kardashian. I know she's a bit more controversial, but she has really helped me through a lot. What I admire most about her is her drive and ability to make the most out of any opportunity. She has learned from her mistakes and even taken advantage of them and is now a successful businesswoman. Whoever says she doesn't deserve to be famous can leave. Also, she has given me a lot of body confidence and has taught me to accept and love myself more. I'd die to have her wardrobe as well.




Zoe Sugg was one of the reasons why I started this blog. She has taught me to take more chances and worry less. Her opening up about her anxiety made a huge difference in my life, because until then I honestly thought I was alone in my battle, and it truly is a battle. Her vlogs make my day and she always manages to put a smile on my face.


JK Rowling was the author who made me love reading and had the most influence on my childhood. Her books filled my life with magic and exitement. Her devotion to charity is incredible and the way she turned her life around is truly inspirational.

These are the four women I look up to most. Demi Lovato has also helped me a lot, but I link her to a very dark period in my life, which I would rather not remember. 

Honestly, the only male celebrities who have stuck with me are Ed Sheeran and Kanye West, but I decided to keep this post about women.
20 September 2014

Why I've been inactive / Life update

I don't know if I should apologise for the lack of posts recently, because I'm not sure anyone reads my blog anyway. The reason I haven't been writing is that I have been very busy, because I started my first year at UNI as well as driving lessons. It's hard enough finding the balance between those two and I've been coming home in the evenings, so naturally, all I've been wanting to do is relax, eat and sleep. It's been exhausting, but it's somehow had a positive effect on my anxiety. However, whenever I've had more free time, like right now, I've found myself overwhelmed and worried, looking for something productive to do and a way to improve. I have managed to lose the joy in watching shows and eating pizza in bed, which was my favourite thing to do before.

Another reason why I haven't been posting is simply because I am stuck. I haven't been buying new clothes or products, I haven't been cooking or even dressing up properly, so I don't feel like there is anything interesting I can post about. This is where you can come in handy. I would very much appreciate responses on what you would like to see more of on here, as well as new ideas.
So please, if you've read this far, could you kindly scroll down a bit further and leave a comment, so I know that I should put in more effort into what I'm doing.
9 September 2014

H&M Haul!


As I may have mentioned (numerous times) before, H&M is my all-time favourite store and whenever I go there I buy something. Sometimes it's some things. I'm not sure whether I actually needed these things, but I was under the impression that I lack tops for the Autumn. So I went a little overboard for my budget, which is 0.


The first thing I got is this short black t-shirt. I am a bit addicted to shorter tees and even though I have a lot I always manage to buy more. This is in size S and it cost 5


I already did a whole post on this fancy hat and you can check it out here.



I absolutely love this shirt, even though I'm not a fan of polka dots. I tried to demonstrate 2 ways to wear it, but I'm the worst model ever, so sorry. It's in size 34 and it cost 15


I was not intending on buying this, but things happen and people change. It's a basic grey blouse, but it has a really cool black mesh detail on the shoulders. It's in size XS and it cost 13


And finally, this cream sweater. My love for sweaters is infinite and so is my love for this colour. Guess what happens when you combine them. It's really gorgeous. I don't know what else I can say about it. I got it in size XS and it cost 20

I want to thank my brother for taking this photos and I gave him a lot of shit, because his little hands were shaking, but they turned out pretty good.






6 September 2014

Candice Swanepoel Make-Up


I recently came across this photo of the gorgeous Candice and I instantly loved her make-up. It's actually really close to what I do when I go out, so I had to recreate it. I wish I looked like Candice, but I don't. At least I can use make-up to create the same look as hers and I own similar jewellery. I don't plan on going in depth about the exact products I use, because they were a ton. Instead, I'm gonna leave it to you to ask me if you have any specific questions about products or techniques.

Here is a close up of my eye make-up:


Also, I'd love to get some feedback on whether I should do more posts like this is the future or maybe even tutorials.


5 September 2014

I felt like answering questions

I know no one asked me, but that's life. I'm in one of those moods when you just wanna do something, no matter what, so you can just feel like you've accomplished something in life. Not sure if you know what I mean, but just bear with me until I get some inspiration for good blog posts.


1.What are you looking forward to in the next week? 
Getting the text book I'll be teaching with and my baby cousin's christening.

2.Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?


Yes.


3.Last three things you had to drink?


Arizona Green Tea, water and Nutella milkshake.


4.Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?


I do walk around in my underwear at home all the time. I know that's not the point of the question.

5.Do you miss anyone?


I do.

6.Who did you last see in person?


This nugget (my brother)

7. Will you sing today?

I sing all the time, so yes.

8. What is wrong with you right now?

I feel lonely and I need affection.

9. Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
Honestly, I don't. Mentally I am in a much better place. There are some things I miss, but I wouldn't want to go back.

10. Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

No, but I have talked on skype for 6 hours straight with my boyfriend.

11. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

There are few people and I'm really grateful.

12. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

Well it does depend on who the "someone else" is. I do sleep better when I'm alone, but I wouldn't trade sleeping next to my little sunshine for the world.

That were 12 questions nobody needed the answers to. You're welcome.
4 September 2014

Today I'm listening to...


I'm currently in bed and I don't want to do anything. I think I just need a break from life. The past few days have been stressful - job interviews, getting my UNI schedule and I'm starting driving lessons tomorrow.
I decided to share some of the songs I've been listening to lately or for a long time. Obviously, I had to stop myself from making it an Ed Sheeran only gig and managed to include other artists as well.

  1. "Happy Little Pill" (and the whole EP for that matter) by Troye Sivan
  2. "Thinking Out Loud" by Ed Sheeran
  3. "Love Me Harder" by Ariana Grande and The Weeknd
  4. "No Angel" by Beyonce
  5. "Where We Land" by Ed Sheeran
  6. "Blood On The Leaves" by Kanye West
  7. "Boom Clap" by Charli XCX
  8. "West Coast" by Lana Del Rey
  9. "Stay With Me" by Sam Smith
  10. "Ghost" by Ella Henderson
I'd love to hear your favourite songs or the songs you've been loving lately, so leave them in the comments!
1 September 2014

My Must-Have Fall Accessory



I recently did a H&M Autumn Wishlist and one of the items that was included in there was a black wool hat. I went shopping today and I bought one, not exactly the same as the one I featured here. It's a little bit smaller and more structured, but I actually liked it more on me than the first one.

I love it so much and even though it was quite hot today I still wanted to wear it, just because it's so pretty.


The way I see myself wearing it is paired with a black leather jacket, jeans and heeled black leather ankle boots.

I got it in size M and it cost 20